Monday, August 28, 2006 @
6:46 PM
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SO STUPID.
why is it sometimes I feel weak and helpless? but I know I'm tough enough to face facts of a certain circumstance. we had our practice today for PE101's cheerdance elimination and, I was supposed to be the one who'll choreograph our "piece"... on the contrary, HE DID.
I don't want to mention names like before... I don't want another conflict. HE was assigned on our stunts, and I? obviously, on moves. HE made me look like a fool there... in front of our group, persistently changing my "shadow-worked steps". I guess HE wanted the limelight... the responsibility of a so-called "stariray".
yeah, I'm being egotistical here. but if you're in my shoes, can you handle the pressure? a girl who only crave
for the best on us, (oh, I'm not the best dancer in this world ... so maybe
for the better) being "hard-pressed" by a HE... hah! better luck next time.
the impedimenta here, seemingly ironic, was not that "stariray" HE. twas my silly thinking, my self-prejudice, my superiority. I'm missing too much of myself. I don't rely on my abilities as a God-given creature. I easily give up when my ego and adeptness were thrashed.
maybe if I'll learn to embrace my inner sensibility, I could reach my aspiration...