Tuesday, August 29, 2006 @
10:29 PM
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thoughts, thoughts... sometimes it makes us completely happy, sometimes it pisses us off. it depends on the circumstance that you're into, I daresay. as for me, thoughts insanely "mock" my whole existence as a person. exaggeration? I don't think so.
I was scheduled to meet my two good ol' buddies -Ja and Merl- in FEU after our A.S. Chorale practice. unfortunately, the last have to get her engineering drawings from Torr's sister.. and knowing Ja, she can't afford to waste her time waiting too long, so.. shewent home without us.
Merl and I, while on a PUV, shared thoughts about different topics.. when she asked how's my
kuya's life and love, I answered proudly that he's now eager to finish his studies and the relationship that he has with his girl's still "
going strong". I don't know if you can call it preconditioning, but I felt something strange deep within.. as if I'll discover a secret in no time.
and then what happened?
yes. my instinct was right.. there's a
bad news. it's personal, that's why I can't reveal it to you. damn, I didn't believe at first.. it seems like
mama and
papa were throwing some hoax on me, but no.. I'm swimming in reality, but too sad, I'm drowning.
sometimes I question God why certain things always go wrong with our lives and how could we stand from a pitfall. is he testing our faith? or just "calling" us to realize that we must.. do our part while living in his territory: to learn from self-made injuries...